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I see fandom people gush about how amazing Sherlock fandom is/was and how awesome an experience they had and...I wish I could understand. Because being in Sherlock fandom was such an overwhelmingly negative experience for me that it all but convinced me to leave ALL of fandom because obviously it is too hostile an environment for the good of my mental health. No joke: I actually had PTSD flashbacks of my worst years of high school playing human punching bag to a pack of bullies who openly invited me to commit suicide.

Anyway. I'm sure there were some nice people in Sherlock fandom, but I didn't find ANY until it was much too late. And now that I keep seeing the same awful behavior in other fandoms... I feel like this might be a generational thing. Like...younger fans take their fandom too seriously and are easily whipped into a frenzy. Or Tumblr and/or Twitter might have something to do with it. Which honestly reinforces the idea that fandom is no longer for me.

I still have WIPs I want to finish. And maybe, like, a one shot. But I think I might take a giant step back after that.
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Atlin Merrick asked a while back for stories about best fandom experiences. Even though I have been in "fandom" for nearly twenty years, my answer was easy. It was "Lost". I know there was drama and I'm sure there were nasty people in the fandom SOMEWHERE, but I was lucky enough that my experience was entirely positive. I found a circle of brilliant women on Livejournal who would have in-depth discussions every week about the latest plot developments and theorize about where the show was headed and what everything meant. We had debates about time travel and suicide theory and they challenged me to really THINK about the show on a deeper level and my enjoyment of the show itself was enriched all the more for it.

But thinking about my best fandom experience of course led me to consider the worst. This was also easy. Hands down, it was "Sherlock". I was describing my experience with "Lost" to a coworker recently and because I neglected to say what fandom it was, he thought I was talking about "Sherlock". He was surprised by the speed with which I said "oh, hell no!" Basically, "Sherlock" fandom was the polar opposite of "Lost" fandom for me. I'm sure there were plenty of lovely people there somewhere, but all I seemed capable of finding was the ones who were deeply invested in ugly shipper wars and making fun of people who like literally any other adaptation of Sherlock Holmes stories. At its worst, I was made an object of such scorn and ridicule in one Twitter group that I nearly gave up ALL of fandom entirely because MY GOD I should have left this shitty drama behind when I graduated high school. 

Anyway. Those are the extreme ends of my fandom experience. Most of them fall somewhere between those.
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I was reading a book recently - one of the many approaches to fan writing communities from the perspective of academia - and it featured very detailed discussions of specific works in one fandom. I felt the same way I had when I had to sit through movies in film studies class because the teacher loved them and thought they were perfect examples of XYZ. I kept thinking there had to be better examples. Or more examples. Anyway. It got me thinking about my favorite stories I've read over the years and I figured I'd share my reading list. Literally all but the very last one of these are slash m/m pairings.


General Sherlock:
Electric Pink Hand Grenade by BeautifulFiction 
BeautifulFiction has a talent for painting images with words that I envy. Her writing is always gorgeous and visceral, but I always come back to this one as my favorite. The non-sexual intimacy between Sherlock and John throughout the story is almost better than the actual sex when it happens at the end. It is also a great demonstration of fan writing (as opposed to original writing) in general because everyone is SO in character that it is easy to imagine the story being canonical. People often think writing other people's characters is easier than writing original characters, but that is just not true. It takes a certain ability to write someone else's characters WELL and BeautifulFiction has it.

The Great Sex Olympics of 221B by XisetentialAngst
Okay, so I guess I should say that the book was "Sherlock's World" and this was the story I thought of when the author was going on for pages about "A Cure for Boredom" and how Sherlock approaching sex from a scientific angle made it totally believable. I kept thinking this was a much better example because not only were they conducting a full study with variables to determine sexual prowess, but the whole thing was concocted as a competition to most accurately decide which of them is the better lover. It's hilarious as well as hot.


Time Travel/MultiWorld Sherlock:
In a Changing Age by allonsys_girl
The author of the book also referenced a story floating multiple universe theory as a way of blending real and fictional worlds. I'll get to real world fics later, but this is one of the best JohnLock stories I read that explores other variations on Sherlock Holmes canon.


General MCU:
A Measure of Mercy by MianMimi (character abuse and angst)
Achingly beautiful and tragic. I couldn't stop thinking about this one after I read it. My first bookmarked MCU story.


Alternate Universe:
I'll Carry the Moon series by 1electricpirate (Sherlock Omegaverse)
I firmly believe that people who rant about how awful A/B/O fics are have just never read a good one. All of my favorites present a world that isn't all that far removed from "The Handmaid's Tale". One of the most striking and obvious examples of this I unfortunately can no longer find (it was in a different fandom pre-AO3), but this is one is probably better written anyway.

Ship of Dreams by eponine119 (Lost, historical AU)
One of the tragedies of the various purges fandom has gone through over the years is that this story may no longer on Livejournal where I found it. What was striking about it was that it didn't just drop characters from "Lost' into James Cameron's "Titanic" and call it a crossover AU, eponine119 effectively wrote an entirely new (if similar) story featuring details that were never in the movie even though they were documented as part of actual history. Basically, she rewrote "Titanic" entirely with characters from "Lost" and a focus on a slash pairing (Jack/Sawyer). It remains one of the best, well researched AUs I have ever read in any fandom.

gemjam's college AU (Lost)
I love gemjam, although I'm not sure she ever thought much of my socially awkward ass. This is one of my favorites of hers: a fully realized series where Jack and Sawyer meet in college and have a fairly normal romance absent of all the crazy island stuff going on in the show.


Reality Bluring ("real person"):
berlynn_wohl's Hiddlebatch series
I know people have a weird relationship with RPF/RPS in fandom. I was once shamed and barred from recommending an author because she found out I read "those stories". The thing is, like A/B/O, it totally depends on WHAT you are reading. I tend to avoid self-insert and reader-insert stories but I'm pretty sure even most of the authors who write those are perfectly cognizant of the line between reality and fiction, even if the stories are self-indulgent Mary Sues. This series is an example of RPS done well AND an example of sex scenes that have a perfect amount of realism (Tom ruining the moment by slipping into a Matthew McConaughey accent is hilarious).

A Day Out with Benedict Cumberbatch by Detective in Training
This one doubles as a parody. A brilliant send up of every self/reader-insert story, so exaggerated it's hard to imagine anyone actually taking it seriously. The surprise ending makes reading comments especially fun: a mixed bag of "WHAT DID YOU JUST MAKE ME READ?!" and cackling laughter.


I'm sure there are many others, but these were the first that sprung to mind.
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 Someone commenting on one of my Sherlock stories noted that there were SO MANY excellent writers in the Sherlock fandom a few months ago. It made me realize I hadn't read anything in the fandom newer than 2017. I have my favorites from the early years saved to a device that is mostly offline during the day so I can re-read them, but whenever I have time to go on AO3 it seems I read the first five pages of summaries and can't find one I want to read. I said recently that I had started reading again, but those were stories I got to directly either by recommendation or going through other works by writers I found in other fandom. I'm sure it's just me, but I'm not sure if the problem is that I've lost interest in this particular fandom entirely (or rather Mofftiss destroyed it) or if the fandom changed and now primarily attracts stories I am uninterested in reading.

Either way I guess the saying about if what you want to read doesn't exists, write it yourself is true. Every time I try to read Sherlock fanfic, I feel like I'm wasting time I could be spending WRITING my own story. Which makes sense, I guess, since I would have left the fandom entirely if I didn't have that one unfinished story that hardly anyone but me is reading anymore.
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So I just had to put a note in my story about why my readers can no longer see the fanart that inspired one of my stories EVEN THOUGH I SAVED A COPY TO MY COMPUTER and I am PISSED. Because while a lot of "fandom olds" could see this coming and were smart enough to have backups of their work, a lot of the newbies seemed to stubbornly believe Tumblr would be safe and around forever. Entire swaths of fandom will probably be lost.

Fuck you, Tumblr. Fuck you forever.
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Apparently this has been kicking around Tumblr. I don't do Tumblr, but I like being able to answer questions about fandom without limiting myself to ONE fandom.

All the ships )
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I am not nearly good enough to time this so that it posts exactly at 16:23:42, so just imagine I did. :) To celebrate, I will be posting the final chapters of my two remaining "Lost" WIPs (one of which I just finished today). It took five years, but it looks like I'm finally ready to let go (even if it isn't REALLY the end).

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