I don't want to remember today

[diandrahollman]

I just want to get blind drunk, fall asleep and hopefully wake up to find myself in an alternate reality where America DIDN'T vote for a fascist theocracy. But I'm afraid I will never forget the grave silence that greeted me when I arrived at work this morning. The way my coworker hugged me and vowed that we would get through this while I shook uncontrollably and he tried not to cry himself. The way I collapsed with heaving sobs in the stacks, realized I was in the politics section next to a book about how conservatives claimed the midwest and cried even harder. I will never forget the way I look right now after nearly twenty four hours straight of the sort of crying I haven't done since a loved one died. The fact that I couldn't meet anyone's gaze and flinched when a man passed me on my way to the car, as if I expected him to suddenly attack me.

The whole world is wrong today and I don't know when or if it will ever be right again.

Comments

[dryadinthegrove]

Yes.

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